Myyyyy brain!
Is overwhelmed right now. Ha ha. I'm really good at fragment sentences on this blog.
It's nearing the end of the semester and I'm starting to feel weird pressure. Ha! I'm thinking about taking a semester off and working to save up money for my future life.
My future life. :)
It seems as though everybody wants to know about that! I think I'm in the rebellious teenager stage where I'm just like.....please leave me aloooone!
Although you have no idea who they are, blog, my friends Tina and Clint are engaged! I love them. Truly. Even though boys aren't mushy and what not, so Jeff probably wouldn't ever say this, I think Clint and Tina are our best friends and will be for awhile! We are just in the same stage of life and we can all relate to each other really well. I love them! So I don't mind talking to them about my future life. For some reason they understand completely!
I mean, really, I have lots of best friends....and for some reason that seems to be the problem. The whole rebellious teenager part of me is saying......why do SO many people care about what's happening to me!?!? (when truly the only reason I'm asking that is because I don't know what's going to happen to me in the next couple of months)
(Answer: Duh, because you have too many best friends, Amber.)
Sigh.
How did I let this happen to me? I'm not popular, that's the thing. Shrugs. Maybe people find solace in knowing that they are best friends with someone that they can feel better about themselves being around??? Ha ha...I'm a service. Ha ha, jk. Jk.
I filled out two more job applications today. Growing up is hard. I've just been playing it safe with going to school the past 2 1/2 years. Working a little bit and not studying a lot a bit.
I have a solid full time job in the summer, but uh, if I'm not going to school NEXT semester then that's January which equals no job for me!
I was talking to Jeff last night and I had the idea that maybe I could just get a part time job and then practice my harp a lot and try to make that my second part time job. I can make just as much money doing that 2 or 3 nights a month as I can having a regular part time job.
Pretty much what this post comes down to is:
I'm slowly just getting tired of not having things in order.
It's interesting though because this kind of happened to me last year when I didn't have my art job yet. It seems as though the severity of THIS time around is much graver though. If I'm not going to school next semester I better have a good reason why...meaning a good job.
Last year before I got my art job I got turned down like......a million and a half times. (exaggeration...:) ) I wasn't getting anywhere until suddenly my art job popped out of literally no where and was exactly what I needed.
I think Heavenly Father does that to our lives all the time. He waits until we decide to be patient or till He decides we need to be humble and then gives us what we need.
"....Without patience we can not please God." -President Uchtdorf
In exactly a month and a half I will have gone to the temple every week for three years in a row.
Crazy, huh? In so many ways it feels like the February after I started doing that.
I'm grateful to my Heavenly Father that He's allowed me to do that. Agency is obviously the main factor in me being able to accomplish that visit to the temple weekly, however, I give a lot of credit to my Father in Heaven too. There have been countless weeks that I haven't had time to go and He has cleared up my life so I'm able to.
Temple work is so important. I wish people understood that.
"I promise you that all who faithfully attend to temple work will be blessed beyond measure. Your families will draw closer to the Lord, unseen angels will watch over your loved ones when satanic forces tempt them, the veil will be thin and great spiritual experiences will distill upon this people."
-Vaughan J. Fetherstone
