Blogging two days in a row??? Whoa. It's like I'm a real blogger or something. :)
I've been thinking a lot about varying socioeconomic status lately. I talk about it all the time in my classes and I'm faced with at my work everyday.
Working with inner city kids is tough. They push me to my limits all the time. I look at some of our students and tell myself that my children will never act that way/will never disrespect adults how they do sometimes/will never do this and that. But I can't really know that for sure. I can't control what my children will do.
Parents get blamed for out of control kids a lot, which........yes, if you're doing drugs and abusing your children then you can be to blame, but many times it's not the parents fault. One thing that's been on my mind a lot lately is the cycle of poverty inner city families face and how it's hard to get out of it. I've been thinking about how poverty affects children and although they might have good parents....the situation they are in makes them act out.
It seriously breaks my heart looking at some situations some of my students are in. There is one little boy who just barely moved here from Mexico. He is the sharpest, cutest, and happiest kid. Oh my goodness, he's so great! I love talking to him.......but he only knows Spanish. .......and I guess I DO know Spanish.
Kind of.
I talk to him and get the gist of what he's saying usually.
The reason this situation breaks my heart is because now that he's here he's an ESL student and has a big disadvantage. He's at least two or three grade levels ABOVE the other kids his age. At least. But now that he's an ESL student he might as well be that many levels behind. I have no idea what kind of school he was going to in Mexico, but it was top notch! He's really good at math and reading.....he just checks out perfectly in so many academic ways.
This kid is a testament that stereotypes about immigrants should be thrown away and burned, because he really is so smart and well-rounded. He's always wanting to help, even though he doesn't speak English and doesn't know how to articulate what he wants.
I'm sure his family had a good reason for coming here, but it still makes me so sad that they are at such a big disadvantage with the language and everything else that comes from immigrating here.
It makes me wish I could clone myself a hundred times and do something more than I already am doing.
We went on a field trip today to the Punkinaze which actually turned out to be a blast! Although... I had so much anxiety over it before we went.
Forty kids........four teachers.......a CORN MAZE........
I don't know about anybody else, but my ONLY experiences with corn mazes have been going with my friends and getting lost for 2-3 hours. Like legitimately getting lost. Ha ha.
So yeah.....anxiety.
It turned out super fun though. {Minus the kids not listening on the bus and a little girl puking on the ride home.}
They have two huge slides (seriously huge) that are outside of the maze. Half of our kids spent the whole time just playing on those. And nobody got lost in the maze! (probably cause it was daytime and it was an easy maze, ha ha)
Going and doing things like that make me really realize how INCREDIBLY blessed I am. So. Incredibly. Blessed.
On the way there in the bus we passed Walmart and ten or so of our kids got SO excited! And I'm not talking about normal kid "Hey, look it's Walmart!" kind of excited. This was a different level.
"I love Walmart! I go there all the time!" .... "It's such a cool place!" ..... "Yeah, Walmart is the best!"
It sounds kind of funny, but it seriously opens your eyes to the lives that these kids have.
I know there is no way any of my students do the things that I did when I was little. I was always in dance lessons. I played the harp. I went on two week long vacations with my family every summer with smaller vacations in between. I took voice lessons. I was in musicals. I took art lessons. I did tumbling and t-ball. I did soccer till I decided I didn't like playing it.........my students don't even get to decide if they like things like that because they don't get those opportunities in their lives.
They get to go to Walmart....and that's a cool thing.
So when we got to the Punkinaze it didn't surprise me at all that they were all ECSTATIC. They were screaming and smiling bigger than ever. They had SO much fun and kept telling me that they were.
There is one boy in particular who probably is my favorite (but I would never tell any of them that) who came up to me and thanked me for taking him there. He was genuinely so happy that he got to go.
Yes, in the majority culture we teach our children to mind their manners and say thank you when it's appropriate. But how often does a child actually truly feel that much gratitude and express it so sweetly (without being told) when someone has done a nice thing for them?
It brings me joy to see kids, who struggle through so many things, be so happy. Most of our kids struggle in school. Others struggle making friends or keeping friends. Some have hard family lives. It's nice to sit back and know that at least for that forty-five minutes they were able to be completely free and have fun.
I don't really think there is a reasonable answer to breaking the cycle of poverty, but it is comforting to know sometimes that even though you're not doing a lot, at least you made somebody happy for the day.
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Research Paper? What's that?
Some days I just want to be a stay-at-home mom and play my harp, ha ha. Today is one of those days. Don't get me wrong, I love school and what not. I love my major and everything that I learn. Young children are the best! Most days I even look at how close I am to graduating and I kind of freak out thinking.... "I'm really that close? I need to learn as much as I can before I can't anymore!" ........then there are days like this where I look at the countdown app on my phone and it tells me I have 185 days till I graduate and I feel like that's twelve years away.
Today between one of my classes I was talking to one of my friends who is in a couple of classes with me.
We like complaining about how ridiculous our one professor is.
It's pretty great.
Anyways, she's a Family Studies major (yes, hardly anybody knows what that is, it's okay if you don't either, ha ha) and I was asking her what she wants to do with it. She was telling me she wants to do social work type things and I was like....oh cool. Then I proceeded to tell her about how quite a few girls that I know who are doing that major want to be stay-at-home moms and that I thought it was an awesome major if someone wanted to do that.
My friend kind of shut me down and said something to the affect of........"I don't know why anybody would want to go to school if they were just going to be a stay-at-home mom."
I was like: "...oh....uh....yeeeeah?" Ha ha ha.
That's the main reason I generally don't tell people that I'm "JUST" going to be a stay-at-home mom. They usually don't understand why I'm going to school and all that jaaaaaazz.
And really, I probably don't have a way awesome reply to why I am going to school other than I like to learn (and the ever popular/practical reason, that it's nice to have a backup plan just in case my husband and I need a second income). In particular I like to learn about the development of young children so that's what's pushing me to graduation!
I'm mostly writing this post because I'm in the middle of writing a research paper, ha ha ha. Well, I'm actually taking a break because I'm frustrated with the paper. It's only supposed to be five pages long and right now I'm sitting at seven pages. That's kinda backwards, right?
And NO I'm not claiming to be totally awesome at research papers. Cause I'm not.
I blame two things........
-The topic (because it's something I'm really passionate about).
-And the fact that over the summer my overachieving professor made me write a 17 page research paper on bulimia (which how much can you REALLY say about bulimia after you've gone over the basic: it's bad, it's sad, don't do it, self esteem is good type statements)........and so consequently I tend to get really long winded on research papers when I don't have to.
So yeah, I'm ignoring that paper for now.
The topic is on "play" as a way of learning in early childhood. I love play because it IS learning when used correctly. If you don't believe me ask me to read my seven....I mean five page paper. It's true. When I have a pre-school/kindergarten class someday it's gonna be all about play!
There isn't really anything else going on in my life right now. Mostly just waiting and dreaming about the future. My husband always has to bring me back to the now, because for some reason I live a lot in the future, ha ha.
I called the Weber-Morgan Early Intervention center today because I really just want to work with babies and young children again, ha ha. I'm technically not supposed to do my internship/work experience till May, but I'm not a very patient person. (Obviously)
For my work experience I want to get into an early intervention type job. Davis and Weber counties both have one and I've contacted them both now and it was pretty much like a "we'll get back to you" kind of thing. They are both through the school districts which means they don't really have any formal internship type programs set up. I basically just need to wait till an actual job opening opens up and try to get that.
So yep. Just gotta wait!
I think once I start my student teaching in January the void of not working with young children that I'm feeling will be filled again. Ha ha ha.
Till then I'm just making it through this semester! Just a little over a month left! It's gone by super fast, which is good.
Well, I guess I better go finish my paper.
Or maybe I'll go get a snack. Yeah, that sounds a lot more inviting. :)
Today between one of my classes I was talking to one of my friends who is in a couple of classes with me.
We like complaining about how ridiculous our one professor is.
It's pretty great.
Anyways, she's a Family Studies major (yes, hardly anybody knows what that is, it's okay if you don't either, ha ha) and I was asking her what she wants to do with it. She was telling me she wants to do social work type things and I was like....oh cool. Then I proceeded to tell her about how quite a few girls that I know who are doing that major want to be stay-at-home moms and that I thought it was an awesome major if someone wanted to do that.
My friend kind of shut me down and said something to the affect of........"I don't know why anybody would want to go to school if they were just going to be a stay-at-home mom."
I was like: "...oh....uh....yeeeeah?" Ha ha ha.
That's the main reason I generally don't tell people that I'm "JUST" going to be a stay-at-home mom. They usually don't understand why I'm going to school and all that jaaaaaazz.
And really, I probably don't have a way awesome reply to why I am going to school other than I like to learn (and the ever popular/practical reason, that it's nice to have a backup plan just in case my husband and I need a second income). In particular I like to learn about the development of young children so that's what's pushing me to graduation!
I'm mostly writing this post because I'm in the middle of writing a research paper, ha ha ha. Well, I'm actually taking a break because I'm frustrated with the paper. It's only supposed to be five pages long and right now I'm sitting at seven pages. That's kinda backwards, right?
And NO I'm not claiming to be totally awesome at research papers. Cause I'm not.
I blame two things........
-The topic (because it's something I'm really passionate about).
-And the fact that over the summer my overachieving professor made me write a 17 page research paper on bulimia (which how much can you REALLY say about bulimia after you've gone over the basic: it's bad, it's sad, don't do it, self esteem is good type statements)........and so consequently I tend to get really long winded on research papers when I don't have to.
So yeah, I'm ignoring that paper for now.
The topic is on "play" as a way of learning in early childhood. I love play because it IS learning when used correctly. If you don't believe me ask me to read my seven....I mean five page paper. It's true. When I have a pre-school/kindergarten class someday it's gonna be all about play!
There isn't really anything else going on in my life right now. Mostly just waiting and dreaming about the future. My husband always has to bring me back to the now, because for some reason I live a lot in the future, ha ha.
I called the Weber-Morgan Early Intervention center today because I really just want to work with babies and young children again, ha ha. I'm technically not supposed to do my internship/work experience till May, but I'm not a very patient person. (Obviously)
For my work experience I want to get into an early intervention type job. Davis and Weber counties both have one and I've contacted them both now and it was pretty much like a "we'll get back to you" kind of thing. They are both through the school districts which means they don't really have any formal internship type programs set up. I basically just need to wait till an actual job opening opens up and try to get that.
So yep. Just gotta wait!
I think once I start my student teaching in January the void of not working with young children that I'm feeling will be filled again. Ha ha ha.
Till then I'm just making it through this semester! Just a little over a month left! It's gone by super fast, which is good.
Well, I guess I better go finish my paper.
Or maybe I'll go get a snack. Yeah, that sounds a lot more inviting. :)
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Grandma
My one and only grandma I've ever known passed away last night. She was 75 years old. She had only been diagnosed with cancer just a month ago, but it came on too strong and took her from us faster than we ever thought it would.
As I was crying last night Jeff was holding me and said: "Ya know, I really don't know how people outside of the Gospel handle death...it would be so hard if you really thought that was the end."
It's so sad to us that there are so many people in the world that don't have the comfort of the Plan of Salvation. Without that knowledge I think I would be so bitter and resentful right now. But I'm not.
I love my Heavenly Father and while I cry because Grandma isn't with ME anymore, I'm happy because she's with her parents, her brother, and so many other people she loved for so long in her mortal life again. And most importantly she's back with God and our Savior. She's not in pain anymore, which she had been in a lot pain for the past couple months.
It'll be a strange adjusting period for my family because everything that's ever involved holidays has been surrounded around Grandma. It's like we are stepping into a new phase of life - my mom is now a grandma herself and likely will be getting more and more grandchildren in the near-ish future to make up our new extended family.
Since my grandma is the only one I've ever known she had a big impact on my life. So much of her personality got passed on to my mom, my sister, and I.
My grandma always was concerned about other people. She rarely (or really, never) thought about herself. She was constantly worrying about someone and how she could make things better for them. I remember several times in my life where she would voice her concern to me about my situation. I think it was the best way she knew how to love people was by serving them and caring about what was happening to them.
The most recent time she was concerned about me was about six months ago when she took me aside and told me I needed to graduate from college before having a baby. I kind of laughed and told her I was going to wait, but even though it was funny that that would be a concern of hers I thought about it later and how sweet it was that she would be thinking about my future and what was best for me.
I think I got my laugh from my grandma. My grandma always laughed loud and long. I loved making her laugh and I probably tried too hard most of the time to do so. I think I inherited my laugh from her, because whenever I truly laugh....which is generally only around people I'm comfortable with.....I kind of sound like her.
My grandma's name was Karen Margean, but she always went by Margean her whole life. My name is Amber Margean which I love. Growing up people always said my middle name wrong and sometimes they thought it sounded old, but I never cared. I love being named after my grandma. I love the concept of linking two people together like that. It's always made me have a very special place in my heart for her.
I want to pass on something special like that to my daughters when I have them. I feel like it connects you with your ancestors (living or not) and gives you a better appreciation for them.
Aside from being named after my grandma, I think my favorite part about her was how she called me her Sunshine. Like I said, I loved making my grandma laugh.........ever since I was little. I loved that she saw that happiness in me and really saw the best in me come out. Grandmas have a way of doing that, I think. She always made me feel so special and so loved. Being her "Sunshine" was a constant reminder to me that I needed to remember to shine and be happy. That's all my grandma really wanted was for me to be so so happy.
And really........I am so so happy. I have the best, most supportive husband. I have a wonderful family and someday will have an awesome family of my own. Maybe that's why my grandma had to leave, because she needed to warn my future children all about me, ha ha.
I love my grandma and I love God for placing me in her life.
This week is going to be hard, but I love that I can feel the comfort of my Savior and know that my grandma is happy. :)
As I was crying last night Jeff was holding me and said: "Ya know, I really don't know how people outside of the Gospel handle death...it would be so hard if you really thought that was the end."
It's so sad to us that there are so many people in the world that don't have the comfort of the Plan of Salvation. Without that knowledge I think I would be so bitter and resentful right now. But I'm not.
I love my Heavenly Father and while I cry because Grandma isn't with ME anymore, I'm happy because she's with her parents, her brother, and so many other people she loved for so long in her mortal life again. And most importantly she's back with God and our Savior. She's not in pain anymore, which she had been in a lot pain for the past couple months.
It'll be a strange adjusting period for my family because everything that's ever involved holidays has been surrounded around Grandma. It's like we are stepping into a new phase of life - my mom is now a grandma herself and likely will be getting more and more grandchildren in the near-ish future to make up our new extended family.
Since my grandma is the only one I've ever known she had a big impact on my life. So much of her personality got passed on to my mom, my sister, and I.
My grandma always was concerned about other people. She rarely (or really, never) thought about herself. She was constantly worrying about someone and how she could make things better for them. I remember several times in my life where she would voice her concern to me about my situation. I think it was the best way she knew how to love people was by serving them and caring about what was happening to them.
The most recent time she was concerned about me was about six months ago when she took me aside and told me I needed to graduate from college before having a baby. I kind of laughed and told her I was going to wait, but even though it was funny that that would be a concern of hers I thought about it later and how sweet it was that she would be thinking about my future and what was best for me.
I think I got my laugh from my grandma. My grandma always laughed loud and long. I loved making her laugh and I probably tried too hard most of the time to do so. I think I inherited my laugh from her, because whenever I truly laugh....which is generally only around people I'm comfortable with.....I kind of sound like her.
My grandma's name was Karen Margean, but she always went by Margean her whole life. My name is Amber Margean which I love. Growing up people always said my middle name wrong and sometimes they thought it sounded old, but I never cared. I love being named after my grandma. I love the concept of linking two people together like that. It's always made me have a very special place in my heart for her.
I want to pass on something special like that to my daughters when I have them. I feel like it connects you with your ancestors (living or not) and gives you a better appreciation for them.
Aside from being named after my grandma, I think my favorite part about her was how she called me her Sunshine. Like I said, I loved making my grandma laugh.........ever since I was little. I loved that she saw that happiness in me and really saw the best in me come out. Grandmas have a way of doing that, I think. She always made me feel so special and so loved. Being her "Sunshine" was a constant reminder to me that I needed to remember to shine and be happy. That's all my grandma really wanted was for me to be so so happy.
And really........I am so so happy. I have the best, most supportive husband. I have a wonderful family and someday will have an awesome family of my own. Maybe that's why my grandma had to leave, because she needed to warn my future children all about me, ha ha.
I love my grandma and I love God for placing me in her life.
This week is going to be hard, but I love that I can feel the comfort of my Savior and know that my grandma is happy. :)
Monday, October 1, 2012
Babies and Beyond
I entitled this like I did because I like messing with people's heads. Ha ha.....sorry, I'm really not that funny.
(just in case you don't get it, I think it's funny because my family and friends are going to think I'm pregnant if I mention the word "baby" in anything :) )
I love babies and small children more than...................really anything......and I show it quite rigorously.......so naturally I think most people think I should have been pregnant long ago. Especially since I've been married for a year and a half.
Seriously, I should have two babies by now, right? :)
A year and a half. Jeff and I kind of completely skipped over our half anniversary this year. Whoops! That was 5 days ago, I guess. Hmmm...it's ok.......it's not like a half birthday where the half cake is next to necessary.
So anyways, I'm not pregnant. Sorry for the title. It's a Monday..........my husband is going to be gone till 9:00 tonight cause he's a good student.......I really just needed entertainment, even if this doesn't trick anybody. :)
This post IS about babies though! I've been thinking a lot about small children lately. Mainly because I study them everyday at school and work and in my personal life when I happen upon one. I love toddlers and pre-schoolers, they are seriously so fascinating. I love asking them questions and seeing how they view the world.
Every time somebody asks me what my major is I'll tell them and they will pause and then say... "So, what does that mean?" I just kind of laugh and explain it to them. The next thing they usually say is: "You must be SUCH a patient person, that's so great! I could never do that...etc."
I usually just take the compliment, cause I don't like proving people wrong, ha ha. But really, I think my professor said it best about a month ago at the beginning of the semester when he said: "People in our profession always get told that they must be extremely patient people working with small children, but rather than being patient, we really just 'understand' the small children to the point of giving them what they need......teaching them....etc."
I sooooooooooooo agree with that. I consider myself a patient person with small children, but really it's because I feel like I understand them. I don't think I could ever work with teenagers or adults, because for the most part, I flat out don't understand them at all.
My biggest frustrations in life, that I voice to my husband probably more than he wants to hear, are how completely ridiculous I feel like other adults are. The way they act, the way they present their lives, the way they treat others.......I don't understand it, and that's why it's a good thing I'm an Early Childhood major.
I could have never been a business major like my husband. All they do is work with adults! Jeff will listen to me rant about people and he'll put his two cents in, but for the most part our conversations will end with him saying how everyone is different. He'll generally leave the conversation without any guile or misunderstanding or weirdness towards the person.
I feel like I'm the same way with little kids. Many people look at babies or small children and they will think......why are they crying, why do they misbehave so much, why can't their parents just deal with them......and I'll leave my opinion of that child similar to how my husband leaves his of adults.
I should have taken an adult psychology class......it probably would have helped me out a little bit, ha ha.
Speaking of babies, my sister-in-law had her baby on Friday last week! She's the first baby in the Hunter family. I have nine nieces and nephews on Jeff's side of the family so I'm pretty used to kids being around in that situation, but my side has never had babies so it'll be fun!
On a completely unrelated note, today in one of my classes I had to explain to one of my classmates what the word "discern" means. (This is another reason why I can't work with adults, because I don't know how to dumb things down for them without treating them like complete idiots) I was kind of baffled in the first place why she didn't know this word......but then when I had to explain it to her again ten minutes later it was even weirder, ha ha.
Oh the American education system.......it's a gem. And I will soon be part of it as a chosen career. Cheers. :)
(just in case you don't get it, I think it's funny because my family and friends are going to think I'm pregnant if I mention the word "baby" in anything :) )
I love babies and small children more than...................really anything......and I show it quite rigorously.......so naturally I think most people think I should have been pregnant long ago. Especially since I've been married for a year and a half.
Seriously, I should have two babies by now, right? :)
A year and a half. Jeff and I kind of completely skipped over our half anniversary this year. Whoops! That was 5 days ago, I guess. Hmmm...it's ok.......it's not like a half birthday where the half cake is next to necessary.
So anyways, I'm not pregnant. Sorry for the title. It's a Monday..........my husband is going to be gone till 9:00 tonight cause he's a good student.......I really just needed entertainment, even if this doesn't trick anybody. :)
This post IS about babies though! I've been thinking a lot about small children lately. Mainly because I study them everyday at school and work and in my personal life when I happen upon one. I love toddlers and pre-schoolers, they are seriously so fascinating. I love asking them questions and seeing how they view the world.
Every time somebody asks me what my major is I'll tell them and they will pause and then say... "So, what does that mean?" I just kind of laugh and explain it to them. The next thing they usually say is: "You must be SUCH a patient person, that's so great! I could never do that...etc."
I usually just take the compliment, cause I don't like proving people wrong, ha ha. But really, I think my professor said it best about a month ago at the beginning of the semester when he said: "People in our profession always get told that they must be extremely patient people working with small children, but rather than being patient, we really just 'understand' the small children to the point of giving them what they need......teaching them....etc."
I sooooooooooooo agree with that. I consider myself a patient person with small children, but really it's because I feel like I understand them. I don't think I could ever work with teenagers or adults, because for the most part, I flat out don't understand them at all.
My biggest frustrations in life, that I voice to my husband probably more than he wants to hear, are how completely ridiculous I feel like other adults are. The way they act, the way they present their lives, the way they treat others.......I don't understand it, and that's why it's a good thing I'm an Early Childhood major.
I could have never been a business major like my husband. All they do is work with adults! Jeff will listen to me rant about people and he'll put his two cents in, but for the most part our conversations will end with him saying how everyone is different. He'll generally leave the conversation without any guile or misunderstanding or weirdness towards the person.
I feel like I'm the same way with little kids. Many people look at babies or small children and they will think......why are they crying, why do they misbehave so much, why can't their parents just deal with them......and I'll leave my opinion of that child similar to how my husband leaves his of adults.
I should have taken an adult psychology class......it probably would have helped me out a little bit, ha ha.
Speaking of babies, my sister-in-law had her baby on Friday last week! She's the first baby in the Hunter family. I have nine nieces and nephews on Jeff's side of the family so I'm pretty used to kids being around in that situation, but my side has never had babies so it'll be fun!
On a completely unrelated note, today in one of my classes I had to explain to one of my classmates what the word "discern" means. (This is another reason why I can't work with adults, because I don't know how to dumb things down for them without treating them like complete idiots) I was kind of baffled in the first place why she didn't know this word......but then when I had to explain it to her again ten minutes later it was even weirder, ha ha.
Oh the American education system.......it's a gem. And I will soon be part of it as a chosen career. Cheers. :)
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
Today.
I haven't posted in awhile....... but I have class in ten minutes so this is going to be quick!
Things on my mind today:
I LOVE FALL!!!!!!!! I love it, I love it, I love it! Fall is seriously the greatest season of them all. I get so happy for reasons that are unknown, but nonetheless, great. I love the weather (I wore my cute coat today for the first time this year), I love the leaves, I love the activities that happen (General Conference, Halloween, Thanksgiving), and I love getting ready to celebrate Christmas (which in turn has nothing to do with fall, but whatever, the anticipation is brilliant)! I love fall.
I also love psychology. I learn SO much about myself and people I know when I study psychology. I'm grateful that all of my classes are psychology based. My major is pretty much the best of all possible majors. In my Young Children At Risk class this morning we talked about some awesome things relating to psychology and it made me very happy.
Everyone ever has a baby and a house. Everyone. Ever. Luckily I'm not really wanting those two things today otherwise I might be very jealous. (k, it's not that I DON'T want those things, I just don't want them right now) Seriously though, you can't go on Facebook and not see a new baby or a new house. Seriously. Ha ha. It makes me happy for the future, I guess?!
I really really really want to do my student teaching. Really badly. As much as I love sitting in class and learning cool things (like psychology), I wish I was doing my student teaching too. I love my job (most days), but it's working with old kids.......old kids are weird.............yes, I'm calling eight and nine year olds "old kids". I just LOVE toddlers and pre-schoolers......sigh. Wishing I was doing my student teaching today.
That's about it for now.....sorry, this is really short and scattered.....I gotta go learn about immigration now in my next class. It'll be good. I'm sure a couple of my classmates will have very opinionated views on it. I'll just sit in the background and watch the mad debates happen. :)
Things on my mind today:
I LOVE FALL!!!!!!!! I love it, I love it, I love it! Fall is seriously the greatest season of them all. I get so happy for reasons that are unknown, but nonetheless, great. I love the weather (I wore my cute coat today for the first time this year), I love the leaves, I love the activities that happen (General Conference, Halloween, Thanksgiving), and I love getting ready to celebrate Christmas (which in turn has nothing to do with fall, but whatever, the anticipation is brilliant)! I love fall.
I also love psychology. I learn SO much about myself and people I know when I study psychology. I'm grateful that all of my classes are psychology based. My major is pretty much the best of all possible majors. In my Young Children At Risk class this morning we talked about some awesome things relating to psychology and it made me very happy.
Everyone ever has a baby and a house. Everyone. Ever. Luckily I'm not really wanting those two things today otherwise I might be very jealous. (k, it's not that I DON'T want those things, I just don't want them right now) Seriously though, you can't go on Facebook and not see a new baby or a new house. Seriously. Ha ha. It makes me happy for the future, I guess?!
I really really really want to do my student teaching. Really badly. As much as I love sitting in class and learning cool things (like psychology), I wish I was doing my student teaching too. I love my job (most days), but it's working with old kids.......old kids are weird.............yes, I'm calling eight and nine year olds "old kids". I just LOVE toddlers and pre-schoolers......sigh. Wishing I was doing my student teaching today.
That's about it for now.....sorry, this is really short and scattered.....I gotta go learn about immigration now in my next class. It'll be good. I'm sure a couple of my classmates will have very opinionated views on it. I'll just sit in the background and watch the mad debates happen. :)
Saturday, August 25, 2012
Lots and lots!
A lot has been happening lately, but all of it can pretty much be summed up in.......getting ready for school.
I'm so excited for school to start! Ah!
A week ago I ended my mowing job because I started another job for the school year! I'm working at an elementary school in for the YMCA after school program. I had training all of this week.....which was slightly brutal for reasons I won't go into (ha ha), but now we start school on Monday and I'm so stoked!
It was crazy strange leaving my mowing job. Five summers. Five. Five full summers of mowing. I must be insane. No, it paid for school so it's all good. I have so many awesome memories from it too which is wonderful. Although it was a great job in many ways (mostly social ways), I'm glad I never have to go back.
It's like the end of an era. I'm never going back. I'm graduating, getting a real job, growing up......
It feels SO strange, but really nice.
The job hunt that eventually ended with the YMCA was nuts. I was so frustrated for so long (ask my husband), ha ha. I checked openings on like five different job boards everyday and I applied for....not exaggerating....forty or so different jobs.
I've always been super lucky with jobs.......when I actually, eventually obtain them. I seriously think God has placed me specifically in every job I've had to teach me something great. You could say that's wishful thinking, but I say it's just plain the truth.
I can look back on all my teaching jobs at the various schools I've been at and see exactly what Heavenly Father wanted me to learn.
With this school year approaching I had a lot of emotions going on with finding a job. I was upset that I couldn't go back to my autistic pre-school job.....I'm graduating soon so I felt this weird sense of entitlement that I needed to work with babies or pre-schoolers......and I mostly just wanted a job on campus because really, what would be better than that? Nothing, I dare say. :)
The Child and Family Studies and Education Departments on campus kept having all of these great openings. Some jobs where I could work with the kids in the children's school where I'm doing my student teaching. Others where I could be a helper for my professors. There were about five or so options like that and I applied for them all.
Weeks went by...........I kept calling them. I realized that they probably weren't going to do interviews till right before school, but it was still frustrating.
In the end, I applied, got the YMCA job.
Not even three hours after I accepted the YMCA job I received a phone call from my department at Weber asking if I wanted to interview to be a professor's assistant.
..............
And what did I do?
I said no. I cried later and felt weird, but I knew I needed to say no because of the feeling I got when I accepted the YMCA job.
I was talking to my mom on the phone about it and I think she said it best (this isn't a direct quote, but good enough): "Yeah, the job on campus would have been convienent and nice, but with this YMCA job you're going to impact lives and be able to be an awesome example for kids that have nothing."
I think in the end that's one big blessing I'm going to get from this job. I saw even with back to school night the level of poverty the school I'm working at has and it's really just sad and humbling.
God probably knew I needed humbling more than anything else, which is probably why I got this job.
In the past week I've actually had a couple more offers from the on-campus jobs that I applied for in my department/children's school.......which has been hard, but I know in the end I got the job that I did for a reason.
Another hard thing was seeing one of my EXTREMELY cute autistic boys at back at school night. Ahhhhhh....my heart broke. I said hi to him and he got really shy, but I know he remembered me. It was so cute to hear his little autistic babble again. His older brother goes to my school (I'm really hoping he does the after school program, ha ha).
Bah. Dang kids. They are so cute!
So after much toil and rearranging, my life is officially set for school to start on Monday. Hooray!
The school I'm working at, although it is very low on the socioeconomic side of families, is actually really cool! It used to be a junior high so it is huge and has all of these amazing resources. It has two huge gyms, an auditorium with a big stage and tons of seats, a really nice library, and a cool kiva type commons area. It'll be neat to use all of the different spaces for the program.
Well, I have a full day of things to do to get ready for school so I better go. We are going to the temple too which will be nice to do right before school! I love the temple. :) I'm excited to go and think about all of my blessings, I have so many! Although it was a long process getting a job I really do feel very blessed. I'm very grateful that God knows what I need. It'll be an interesting year discovering what exactly He had in mind for me with this job!
I'm so excited for school to start! Ah!
A week ago I ended my mowing job because I started another job for the school year! I'm working at an elementary school in for the YMCA after school program. I had training all of this week.....which was slightly brutal for reasons I won't go into (ha ha), but now we start school on Monday and I'm so stoked!
It was crazy strange leaving my mowing job. Five summers. Five. Five full summers of mowing. I must be insane. No, it paid for school so it's all good. I have so many awesome memories from it too which is wonderful. Although it was a great job in many ways (mostly social ways), I'm glad I never have to go back.
It's like the end of an era. I'm never going back. I'm graduating, getting a real job, growing up......
It feels SO strange, but really nice.
The job hunt that eventually ended with the YMCA was nuts. I was so frustrated for so long (ask my husband), ha ha. I checked openings on like five different job boards everyday and I applied for....not exaggerating....forty or so different jobs.
I've always been super lucky with jobs.......when I actually, eventually obtain them. I seriously think God has placed me specifically in every job I've had to teach me something great. You could say that's wishful thinking, but I say it's just plain the truth.
I can look back on all my teaching jobs at the various schools I've been at and see exactly what Heavenly Father wanted me to learn.
With this school year approaching I had a lot of emotions going on with finding a job. I was upset that I couldn't go back to my autistic pre-school job.....I'm graduating soon so I felt this weird sense of entitlement that I needed to work with babies or pre-schoolers......and I mostly just wanted a job on campus because really, what would be better than that? Nothing, I dare say. :)
The Child and Family Studies and Education Departments on campus kept having all of these great openings. Some jobs where I could work with the kids in the children's school where I'm doing my student teaching. Others where I could be a helper for my professors. There were about five or so options like that and I applied for them all.
Weeks went by...........I kept calling them. I realized that they probably weren't going to do interviews till right before school, but it was still frustrating.
In the end, I applied, got the YMCA job.
Not even three hours after I accepted the YMCA job I received a phone call from my department at Weber asking if I wanted to interview to be a professor's assistant.
..............
And what did I do?
I said no. I cried later and felt weird, but I knew I needed to say no because of the feeling I got when I accepted the YMCA job.
I was talking to my mom on the phone about it and I think she said it best (this isn't a direct quote, but good enough): "Yeah, the job on campus would have been convienent and nice, but with this YMCA job you're going to impact lives and be able to be an awesome example for kids that have nothing."
I think in the end that's one big blessing I'm going to get from this job. I saw even with back to school night the level of poverty the school I'm working at has and it's really just sad and humbling.
God probably knew I needed humbling more than anything else, which is probably why I got this job.
In the past week I've actually had a couple more offers from the on-campus jobs that I applied for in my department/children's school.......which has been hard, but I know in the end I got the job that I did for a reason.
Another hard thing was seeing one of my EXTREMELY cute autistic boys at back at school night. Ahhhhhh....my heart broke. I said hi to him and he got really shy, but I know he remembered me. It was so cute to hear his little autistic babble again. His older brother goes to my school (I'm really hoping he does the after school program, ha ha).
Bah. Dang kids. They are so cute!
So after much toil and rearranging, my life is officially set for school to start on Monday. Hooray!
The school I'm working at, although it is very low on the socioeconomic side of families, is actually really cool! It used to be a junior high so it is huge and has all of these amazing resources. It has two huge gyms, an auditorium with a big stage and tons of seats, a really nice library, and a cool kiva type commons area. It'll be neat to use all of the different spaces for the program.
Well, I have a full day of things to do to get ready for school so I better go. We are going to the temple too which will be nice to do right before school! I love the temple. :) I'm excited to go and think about all of my blessings, I have so many! Although it was a long process getting a job I really do feel very blessed. I'm very grateful that God knows what I need. It'll be an interesting year discovering what exactly He had in mind for me with this job!
Sunday, August 5, 2012
Cliche peace
I've started so many posts lately and then have given up on them halfway. There have been about five times this past week that I have started a post and not finished it. Why can't I finish posts??? Hmmm....we'll see how far I get on this one!
The other day I posted on Facebook that I found the place in Blogger that shows me how many "views" my blog posts get. I kind of decided that people don't understand my humor because they took my post on Facebook kind of strange.....but I guess I've always known it takes strange people to understand me so it's all good in the end, I suppose. :)
After having this blog for two and a half years I finally found where it tells me how many people read it. My average was about 50 views per post. I was totally shocked! I was really flattered, but still completely shocked.
When I started this blog it was mainly used as a ranting place where I would write about what I thought about life. It hasn't changed much since then, but I really never thought that many people would read it.
I've been told by some people that have happened upon my blog before that it sounds too cliche, the things that I write. And other people have told me or my husband that some of the things I talk about are weird or cheesy etc. In the end, the only reviews I have ever gotten from people have been negative. My husband has always told me not to take them negatively, but how can I not when people say stuff like that to your face? Ha ha!
Because of those things I always thought my blog wasn't viewed much.
That didn't stop me from writing, because I love writing and this is the easiest way I know how. I'm not good at keeping a journal, but I wanted my kids to have something that I've written someday.
I want my kids to know how blessed of a life I have. In lots of ways I'm sure that's why people have told me my blog is too cliche. In today's society nobody is really allowed to actually have a great life, right? Everybody is allowed small moments of greatness, but people get jealous and feel bad when they happen upon somebody that claims to have a great life all the time.
Honestly, I do have bad days and stupid things do happen to me, but I still think I'm extremely blessed.
Today was fast Sunday so we had fast and testimony meeting in Sacrament meeting. While people were bearing their testimonies I started thinking about people in my life (like I often do). I think about my family (all three parts of them).....friends.....basically anybody I know. As I was thinking about these people I started thinking about how they all feel about their family....or their spouse. I started thinking if each of them could pick one word to describe their relationship with a family member or spouse what would it be?
(I should have been a psychology major....sometimes my brain is strange. I will often tell Jeff I've been thinking of things like that and he'll look at me strange and sometimes say: "why are you even bothering thinking of stuff like that?" My answer is usually: "Cause it's fun?")
Then I thought of mine and Jeff's marriage and if I had one word to describe it what would it be.
I sat there for a minute and tried to think of something that wasn't cliche......but I had already thought of the word "peaceful" and couldn't think of anything better.
Jeff and I have crazy lives. We are very busy both working full-time and when we are in school it's even crazier. We go and do lots of fun things together and never have a dull moment. We are always laughing at each other. But somewhere in the middle of all of that is peace. No matter what is happening there is always an underlying sense of peace.
I felt extremely grateful in that moment because I know that there are people in my life that I know can't say the same thing about their situation.
But it gets even better!
Not even five minutes after I was thinking these thoughts.......call them cliche, I don't care.......
Our AMAZING Stake Primary President who is in our ward got up and bore her testimony. I seriously love that woman. She is one of the greatest examples I've ever had.
She stood up and started talking about primary childrens' prayers. She said that since she gets to go around the stake a lot and listen to lots of little childrens' prayers she started picking up on a specific theme. She said that children always pray for safety. And it's true, when you think about it, the majority of their prayers are centered around getting somewhere safely or being safe in their lives.
Our Stake Primary President is an elementary school teacher and she told us that it is very apparent when looking at the kids at school who has that "safety" in their lives and who doesn't. She testified about the peace that the Gospel brings into our childrens lives and that we as parents/adults can offer that peace.
I've definitely seen that while working in schools also. The job I had last school year was one that was in an inner city area and honestly, I think only one of our students was LDS. In fact, I'm not even sure if he was, but if anything we only had one out of all our children. You can definitely tell the difference when children have the light of Christ in their homes as opposed to when they don't.
I was so grateful for that testimony that she bore of the peace and safety that should be in our homes and in our childrens lives.
It's strange sometimes how Heavenly Father answers prayers that we don't even know we've said yet. It was really neat to me that I had just been thinking about the subject of peace in marriage and then to have such a wonderful woman bear her testimony of peace in the family. It was like God was answering a prayer that I didn't even know I needed.
That seems to be happening a lot lately. Maybe that's why I haven't been able to finish posts......I've kind of been at a loss for words. I haven't really known how to put my feelings into writing.
I know that God knows our needs before we know them. I know that He wants to answer our prayers.
I know that my blog sounds cliche and that people might think I'm putting on a show......but in the end, I know I'm not. I really am as blessed as I make myself sound and writing it all out is one small way that I can give back to the people that have made it that way.
The other day I posted on Facebook that I found the place in Blogger that shows me how many "views" my blog posts get. I kind of decided that people don't understand my humor because they took my post on Facebook kind of strange.....but I guess I've always known it takes strange people to understand me so it's all good in the end, I suppose. :)
After having this blog for two and a half years I finally found where it tells me how many people read it. My average was about 50 views per post. I was totally shocked! I was really flattered, but still completely shocked.
When I started this blog it was mainly used as a ranting place where I would write about what I thought about life. It hasn't changed much since then, but I really never thought that many people would read it.
I've been told by some people that have happened upon my blog before that it sounds too cliche, the things that I write. And other people have told me or my husband that some of the things I talk about are weird or cheesy etc. In the end, the only reviews I have ever gotten from people have been negative. My husband has always told me not to take them negatively, but how can I not when people say stuff like that to your face? Ha ha!
Because of those things I always thought my blog wasn't viewed much.
That didn't stop me from writing, because I love writing and this is the easiest way I know how. I'm not good at keeping a journal, but I wanted my kids to have something that I've written someday.
I want my kids to know how blessed of a life I have. In lots of ways I'm sure that's why people have told me my blog is too cliche. In today's society nobody is really allowed to actually have a great life, right? Everybody is allowed small moments of greatness, but people get jealous and feel bad when they happen upon somebody that claims to have a great life all the time.
Honestly, I do have bad days and stupid things do happen to me, but I still think I'm extremely blessed.
Today was fast Sunday so we had fast and testimony meeting in Sacrament meeting. While people were bearing their testimonies I started thinking about people in my life (like I often do). I think about my family (all three parts of them).....friends.....basically anybody I know. As I was thinking about these people I started thinking about how they all feel about their family....or their spouse. I started thinking if each of them could pick one word to describe their relationship with a family member or spouse what would it be?
(I should have been a psychology major....sometimes my brain is strange. I will often tell Jeff I've been thinking of things like that and he'll look at me strange and sometimes say: "why are you even bothering thinking of stuff like that?" My answer is usually: "Cause it's fun?")
Then I thought of mine and Jeff's marriage and if I had one word to describe it what would it be.
I sat there for a minute and tried to think of something that wasn't cliche......but I had already thought of the word "peaceful" and couldn't think of anything better.
Jeff and I have crazy lives. We are very busy both working full-time and when we are in school it's even crazier. We go and do lots of fun things together and never have a dull moment. We are always laughing at each other. But somewhere in the middle of all of that is peace. No matter what is happening there is always an underlying sense of peace.
I felt extremely grateful in that moment because I know that there are people in my life that I know can't say the same thing about their situation.
But it gets even better!
Not even five minutes after I was thinking these thoughts.......call them cliche, I don't care.......
Our AMAZING Stake Primary President who is in our ward got up and bore her testimony. I seriously love that woman. She is one of the greatest examples I've ever had.
She stood up and started talking about primary childrens' prayers. She said that since she gets to go around the stake a lot and listen to lots of little childrens' prayers she started picking up on a specific theme. She said that children always pray for safety. And it's true, when you think about it, the majority of their prayers are centered around getting somewhere safely or being safe in their lives.
Our Stake Primary President is an elementary school teacher and she told us that it is very apparent when looking at the kids at school who has that "safety" in their lives and who doesn't. She testified about the peace that the Gospel brings into our childrens lives and that we as parents/adults can offer that peace.
I've definitely seen that while working in schools also. The job I had last school year was one that was in an inner city area and honestly, I think only one of our students was LDS. In fact, I'm not even sure if he was, but if anything we only had one out of all our children. You can definitely tell the difference when children have the light of Christ in their homes as opposed to when they don't.
I was so grateful for that testimony that she bore of the peace and safety that should be in our homes and in our childrens lives.
It's strange sometimes how Heavenly Father answers prayers that we don't even know we've said yet. It was really neat to me that I had just been thinking about the subject of peace in marriage and then to have such a wonderful woman bear her testimony of peace in the family. It was like God was answering a prayer that I didn't even know I needed.
That seems to be happening a lot lately. Maybe that's why I haven't been able to finish posts......I've kind of been at a loss for words. I haven't really known how to put my feelings into writing.
I know that God knows our needs before we know them. I know that He wants to answer our prayers.
I know that my blog sounds cliche and that people might think I'm putting on a show......but in the end, I know I'm not. I really am as blessed as I make myself sound and writing it all out is one small way that I can give back to the people that have made it that way.
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